THE THEN AND NOW

As I sit back and reflect
back then I wasnt ready
didnt take life seriously
lived kinda wrecklessly
didnt know what I wanted
from one day to the next
ran from anything that
resembled committment
after one bad breakup

Now I can say
I am thankful for survival
wiser with age
loving life and loving the
more mature me
glad I didnt settle
patiently waiting for my more better
not to traumatized by the
never ending rollercoastrer ride
of this thing called life.....

THE STOOD UP

Don't blow me up today
after you stood me up last night
the buzz, busy signal is all you
will get
the world does'nt revolve around you
Ain't nobody got time for that
inspite of it all I had a ball
doing what I do
turning heads and taking numbers
making the best of a situation
since I already came out the house
you really messed up when you didnt
show up

Gotta put the big girl panties on
because I'm flying solo
the social butterfly of days of old
waiting on someone who never came
no text, no call--game recognize game
you cant expect more than your
willing to give---R E S P E C T
asking for a million only offering
five cents
maybe it's best if you stay in
your lane
not trying to be a crash-dummy
running into a brick wall
if you allow it once, it will
happen again and again
the matter could have been straightened
out, with a simple phone call-----

A LOVE SONG - PART 8

(BIG BEN MORE THAN A FRIEND)

He drove that 18 wheeler down I95 with the
sweetness of dark chocolate (silky smooth)
she road with him whenever she could
their friendship was progressing nicely
as it should
she even had a handle name (sugarbear one)
they laughed, shared stories as they drove off
into the sun

sometimes in the quietness of the cab
she thought about HIM leaving a wound
with a scab
she was trying to move forward with Ben a
nice guy
but he was lacking in something she could
not explain or even wanted to try
Whatever she was feeling had to exit stage right
because Ben, was honest, nice and polite

99 botles of beer on the wall was the current
situation
he sensed something was wrong, so he
created intervention (the drinking game)
pulling over to a rest stop for some food
and a drink
what was wrong with her he wondered and
began to think
she was in the lady's room when her cell
started to ring
the number she recognized and mixed emotions
it did bring
Hello-- was all she said
It was HIM- dont say a word, I just thought
you'd like to know, glad you didnt change
your number, is what he had to say
just wanted you also to know
Aunt Sara passed away earlier today
(rememba Aunt Sara- from part 2)
I'll send the service info, once the arrangements
are made--bye.....
All she could do was stare at her phone, blankly----

ESP ain't no joke, after all this time, she still
could sense when something was wrong with him---
Does this mean they are going to be seeing each other?

STAY TUNED-- it ain't over......

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHAEL

I CANT HELP IT, I wanted to tell'em to BEAT IT
when they said the king of pop is dead, I felt
they just WANNA BE STARTIN SOMETHIN, I mean
really we just lost Farrah earlier that day
I REMEMBER THE TIME, I got BUTTERFLIES just
waiting for verification that is was true
then I cried to know a SMOOTH CRIMINAL with
drugs took you out, guess we did'nt know
THE MAN IN THE MIRROR after all, once
the story came out

I still remember THE WAY YOU MAKE ME FEEL
whenever you first moon walked across the
stage I screamed at the TV (amazing), guess
you showed us whose BAD, I bet BILLY JEAN was
SPEECHLESS to, you always was a THRILLER and it
did'nt matter if you were BLACK or WHITE a
MJ fan is a fan for life and thats the truth
Quiet as it's kept, when I was younger I just
knew I was gonna be THE LADY IN YOUR LIFE
I had your posters all over my wall and I
was convinced ROCK WITH YOU AND PYT were songs
about me (lol)
Anyway know that you are missed and your fans
JUST CAN'T STOP LOVIN YOU........R.I.P

HALF OF SOME

BACON NO EGGS
TOAST NO JAM
KOOL-AID NO SUGAR
COFFEE NO CREAM
CEREAL NO MILK
PASTA NO SAUCE
ALL THE INGREDIENTS FOR A SALAD BUT NO LETTUCE
(few days before payday, need groceries
low on cash and gas).....

Half of some is what you got
halfway full damn near empty
never completing the completeness
the situation is irritating
sometimes devastating
or just downright aggravating
have your tastebuds all rev'd up
only to discover its to late
the cake on the plate got ate
at some point you resort to
nothingness
because you want what you want
and nothing else will do
or else you settle for another
option
because your first choice is
half of some.....

A LOVE SONG - PART 7

(THE END OF THE BEGINNING)

flashback--graduation the night of the horrible fight

Graduation was awesome, after walking the stage
caps were thrown and pictures taken, partytime

A happy occasion, the music was blaring and dancin was going on
the punch got spiked, they danced a slow song and the feel good
felt good

Tonight was especially special because they were going to
do it, you got that--they were going to DO IT

Until--ring, ring he went to the lobby to answer
Hello, hey bey it's me Ingrid, Happy Graduation
surprise, I'm downtown the hotel next door to
the Sheetz gas station
6 floor, room 693 it's about to be a private party
you the bed and me (he said, see you soon)

Look I need to leave he said enjoy the rest of
your night
leave, what you mean I thought it was me and you
sorry but something came up, I got something I need
to go do
your so fulla crap, I'm telling you now, I'm finished
with you if you walk outta here tonight
ok fine he said, I really dont want to fight
but I don't care I dont owe you a thing
it's not like we're married or I gave you
a diamond ring
i'm not obligated to you, nor you 0bligated to me
I must go now, be safe, have fun and live free
(he left)

DEVASTATED --she got drunker than drunk
(woke up in a tub full of jello)


THE PRESENT

Exscuse me pretty lady, anyone sitting here
do you mind if I buy you a drink
after remembering about that night, she said
sure surprise me, but dont make it a girlie
girl drink--I want it stiff (an 8-ball)
I'm talking about the drink silly, what else
did you think
they drank and laughed, she had made a new friend
His name was Benjamin, but all his friends called
him BIG BEN........

(well, well, well - now what?)
STAY TUNED - IT AIN'T OVER.....

A PLACE TO MEET

They had been meeting every other week
for over a year, rain or shine
they ate lunch, drank coffee, bitched
about life or sometimes just sat quitely
saying nothing

she had somebody and he had somebody
but yet they had each other
the attraction was strong, right or wrong
they never took it past that park bench
Guess they just did'nt wanna mess up
what they had......