LADIES KNOW YOUR WORTH

(something to think about)

Dont be that apple on the ground
make him climb the tree, be just
within his reach
it's ok to make it noteable
that your:
reachable
teachable and obtainable
with a little work put in
stop falling for the
bullshit and fuckery of
friends with benefits
wasting your time tick tock
days, months, years you
cant get back
making babies, the whole
thing full a maybies
the feel good only temporary
leaving children fatherless
in the meantime do the work
on yourself whatever is needed
because sometimes we want things
when we're not really ready to
receive them
not trying to be preachy, just
the one that likes to say things
to make you think......

A LOVE SONG - PART 9

FAREWELL AUNT SARA, REST IN PARADISE

The passing of Aunt Sara had her thinking
about him and all the fun times they shared
the back and forth, the ups and downs
a battered heart beaten beyond repair

Homegoing services for Sara V Adams
Private Memorial
Location and time
disclosed only to the family

As she dressed for the service
the memories attacked:
the shower - the closed lip kiss
the drying off and lotioned up - losing teeth and
fish funeral
the pantyhose - first cooked lunch
the blackdress - things are starting to run together
perfume and accessories - prom night, the bitch Ingrid,
the stripper and her baby
makeup, hair, look in the mirror---SNAP OUT OF IT
this mess is crazy she thought

She walked in signed the book, got a program took a deep breath
and started walking slowly looking straight ahead
right then and there she made up her mind, she was not sticking
around
O my she thought, Aunt Sara looked like she was sleeping, not a
wrinkle in sight, O wow, cant be, was her wig on crooked

His thoughts as he watched: DAMN, she looks good, look at her
all grown up, I want her back-no,no I love Ingrid

After she said goodbye and a silent prayer, she turned and
double-timed it outta there, speaking and making eye contact with
no one

WHO WAS THE BODY IN THE HOT BLACK DRESS - Derrick thought, as
he watched her walk out of his life (for now)......

What the what- ain't it funny how things happen?
It ain't over, Stay tuned-----

THE THEN AND NOW

As I sit back and reflect
back then I wasnt ready
didnt take life seriously
lived kinda wrecklessly
didnt know what I wanted
from one day to the next
ran from anything that
resembled committment
after one bad breakup

Now I can say
I am thankful for survival
wiser with age
loving life and loving the
more mature me
glad I didnt settle
patiently waiting for my more better
not to traumatized by the
never ending rollercoastrer ride
of this thing called life.....

THE STOOD UP

Don't blow me up today
after you stood me up last night
the buzz, busy signal is all you
will get
the world does'nt revolve around you
Ain't nobody got time for that
inspite of it all I had a ball
doing what I do
turning heads and taking numbers
making the best of a situation
since I already came out the house
you really messed up when you didnt
show up

Gotta put the big girl panties on
because I'm flying solo
the social butterfly of days of old
waiting on someone who never came
no text, no call--game recognize game
you cant expect more than your
willing to give---R E S P E C T
asking for a million only offering
five cents
maybe it's best if you stay in
your lane
not trying to be a crash-dummy
running into a brick wall
if you allow it once, it will
happen again and again
the matter could have been straightened
out, with a simple phone call-----

A LOVE SONG - PART 8

(BIG BEN MORE THAN A FRIEND)

He drove that 18 wheeler down I95 with the
sweetness of dark chocolate (silky smooth)
she road with him whenever she could
their friendship was progressing nicely
as it should
she even had a handle name (sugarbear one)
they laughed, shared stories as they drove off
into the sun

sometimes in the quietness of the cab
she thought about HIM leaving a wound
with a scab
she was trying to move forward with Ben a
nice guy
but he was lacking in something she could
not explain or even wanted to try
Whatever she was feeling had to exit stage right
because Ben, was honest, nice and polite

99 botles of beer on the wall was the current
situation
he sensed something was wrong, so he
created intervention (the drinking game)
pulling over to a rest stop for some food
and a drink
what was wrong with her he wondered and
began to think
she was in the lady's room when her cell
started to ring
the number she recognized and mixed emotions
it did bring
Hello-- was all she said
It was HIM- dont say a word, I just thought
you'd like to know, glad you didnt change
your number, is what he had to say
just wanted you also to know
Aunt Sara passed away earlier today
(rememba Aunt Sara- from part 2)
I'll send the service info, once the arrangements
are made--bye.....
All she could do was stare at her phone, blankly----

ESP ain't no joke, after all this time, she still
could sense when something was wrong with him---
Does this mean they are going to be seeing each other?

STAY TUNED-- it ain't over......

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHAEL

I CANT HELP IT, I wanted to tell'em to BEAT IT
when they said the king of pop is dead, I felt
they just WANNA BE STARTIN SOMETHIN, I mean
really we just lost Farrah earlier that day
I REMEMBER THE TIME, I got BUTTERFLIES just
waiting for verification that is was true
then I cried to know a SMOOTH CRIMINAL with
drugs took you out, guess we did'nt know
THE MAN IN THE MIRROR after all, once
the story came out

I still remember THE WAY YOU MAKE ME FEEL
whenever you first moon walked across the
stage I screamed at the TV (amazing), guess
you showed us whose BAD, I bet BILLY JEAN was
SPEECHLESS to, you always was a THRILLER and it
did'nt matter if you were BLACK or WHITE a
MJ fan is a fan for life and thats the truth
Quiet as it's kept, when I was younger I just
knew I was gonna be THE LADY IN YOUR LIFE
I had your posters all over my wall and I
was convinced ROCK WITH YOU AND PYT were songs
about me (lol)
Anyway know that you are missed and your fans
JUST CAN'T STOP LOVIN YOU........R.I.P

HALF OF SOME

BACON NO EGGS
TOAST NO JAM
KOOL-AID NO SUGAR
COFFEE NO CREAM
CEREAL NO MILK
PASTA NO SAUCE
ALL THE INGREDIENTS FOR A SALAD BUT NO LETTUCE
(few days before payday, need groceries
low on cash and gas).....

Half of some is what you got
halfway full damn near empty
never completing the completeness
the situation is irritating
sometimes devastating
or just downright aggravating
have your tastebuds all rev'd up
only to discover its to late
the cake on the plate got ate
at some point you resort to
nothingness
because you want what you want
and nothing else will do
or else you settle for another
option
because your first choice is
half of some.....

A LOVE SONG - PART 7

(THE END OF THE BEGINNING)

flashback--graduation the night of the horrible fight

Graduation was awesome, after walking the stage
caps were thrown and pictures taken, partytime

A happy occasion, the music was blaring and dancin was going on
the punch got spiked, they danced a slow song and the feel good
felt good

Tonight was especially special because they were going to
do it, you got that--they were going to DO IT

Until--ring, ring he went to the lobby to answer
Hello, hey bey it's me Ingrid, Happy Graduation
surprise, I'm downtown the hotel next door to
the Sheetz gas station
6 floor, room 693 it's about to be a private party
you the bed and me (he said, see you soon)

Look I need to leave he said enjoy the rest of
your night
leave, what you mean I thought it was me and you
sorry but something came up, I got something I need
to go do
your so fulla crap, I'm telling you now, I'm finished
with you if you walk outta here tonight
ok fine he said, I really dont want to fight
but I don't care I dont owe you a thing
it's not like we're married or I gave you
a diamond ring
i'm not obligated to you, nor you 0bligated to me
I must go now, be safe, have fun and live free
(he left)

DEVASTATED --she got drunker than drunk
(woke up in a tub full of jello)


THE PRESENT

Exscuse me pretty lady, anyone sitting here
do you mind if I buy you a drink
after remembering about that night, she said
sure surprise me, but dont make it a girlie
girl drink--I want it stiff (an 8-ball)
I'm talking about the drink silly, what else
did you think
they drank and laughed, she had made a new friend
His name was Benjamin, but all his friends called
him BIG BEN........

(well, well, well - now what?)
STAY TUNED - IT AIN'T OVER.....

A PLACE TO MEET

They had been meeting every other week
for over a year, rain or shine
they ate lunch, drank coffee, bitched
about life or sometimes just sat quitely
saying nothing

she had somebody and he had somebody
but yet they had each other
the attraction was strong, right or wrong
they never took it past that park bench
Guess they just did'nt wanna mess up
what they had......

A BAD DISPOSITION OR A WORSE SITUATION

(SHE HAD A SECRET).....
He treated her like a dirty piece of gum stuck to the bottom of his shoe
berated, intimidated a constipated piece of turd
there was no love making only man handling sex taking
why do you stick around, never understood why
she didnt stand her ground
at some point, some time and place somthing's gotta give
a stunted growth, this aint no way to live
one day her baby girl asked "why cant we just leave"
that was the breaking point her incentive enough to deceive
so she packed up there stuff and left that woman beat'n,
womanizing, liar a shortly written note
this is what she had to say, in the note she wrote:

I'm done, I'm out you sorry ass sack a shit
Im done with this loveless relationship, I give up and I quit
I'm outta this dump. I'm leaving you along with all the bills
Oh yeah, I forgot to mention, your gonna need to see a doctor
because what I also leave you with is gonna require lots and lots
of pills....

THE KISS

Addicted like a crackhead on a Monday
cant eat, cant sleep, cant think straight
contemplating, paitiently waiting
for another kiss, that I miss, in total
bliss as I reminisce about a kiss that I
miss

The sun has set I cant forget
the day we met nor do i regret
the kiss that lead to total bliss
as I reminisce about a kiss that
I miss......(muah)!!!!

A LOVE SONG - PART6

(HOW DO RUMORS GET STARTED)

Nosey Josey told Barbara, who told Charlotte, who told Evelyn, who told Marissa. who told Rachael. who told anybody that would listen......

After the Ingrid fiasco, she survived and progressed on in life
got her masters degree, ran a sucessful business and became a married to
the job kinda wife
Sitting in her office, door open this is what she heard
(they were talking about him)

You know he married a stripper in Vegas, right
no- he married a Vegas stripper and she has a son
no- he married a stipper she has 2 kids and he has a son
nope that's wrong he married a stripper across town
and she left her son in Vegas with her parents
to finish school
Well I heard he married a stripper but she a Lawyer now
no- no he married his sister's stripper friend and she has
a little girl
and so forth and so on (blah, blah, blah)

Her co-worker friend, knocked on the open door and walked in her office
said, I know you hear that mess they talkin but girl I kinow the truth

*** Before he married Ingrid, he met this stripper the night he turned 21
they were together for over a year and a half, they have a son named
Jake (cute as a button), I know all this because Mary is my cousin****

She thanked her friend for the info, closed up shop and quietly exit left
a little shocked, dazed--gut punched in the stomach and really needing air
and she didnt want them catty women looking at her to share, compare or stare

A son she thought to a stripper aint that about a trip
whatever, that's his business, because I refuse to cuss and flip
She headed straight to CORDOVA'S to eat and have a stiff drink
she didnt want to be left alone to sit around and think
she ate, she drank and people watched, she drank and people watched
then went completely still, this song came on (Tonight is the night)
it took her back about 7 years, lost in thought, rememba graduation
REWIND--the night of the horrible FIGHT....

STAY TUNED IT AIN'T OVER----

R KELLY SONGS- (a spicy poem)

MSCHELL (author) 8/3/2013 --Inspiration comes from everywhere.......                             

Pull Ya: Dress Down & Pants Up/it aint sexy, it aint cute---- (The night Cinderella got punked)....

First off let me start by saying these are my thoughts and opinions and in no way do I mean to be a hater....

Recently a really good friend and I went to a birthday party, it was an older crowd, the music was on point and people were dancing and having a good time this was before 12 o'clock a.m. After some drinks, dancing and socializing we decided to get adventurous and go somewhere else.

Well we get to our next destination (mind you, it's still before 12 o'clock a.m.)and at first everything was cool, even recognized some familiar faces from my partying days. So we get a really good table and we're having a pretty good time.

AFTER 12 o'clock A.M.---FIFTY SHADES OF WHAT IN THE WORLD?

The crowd changed, the music changed and I knew no one. The place turned into a fashion show of flesh,I remember thinking where's the rest of here dress? Don't get me wrong some of the young ladies looked cute in there little short dresses with matching stilletoes BUT theres always a butt. Everyone can't wear everything and who let you out the house looking like that? I remember not long ago whenever I was leaving the house to hangout with friends my dad would always say "BE A LADY, ACT LIKE YOU GOT SOME CLASS ABOUT YOURSELF" those words always stayed in my head. Another thing I noticed was nobody was dancing, the girls were to busy standing around pulling (down/at) there dresses. What, I can remember dancing all night and never sitting down, because the DJ knew how to spin those records and it was a party for real.....

I saw a pearson with light bright RED braids down to there butt and I immediately thought, I wonder where she works. Ok, I guess I probably just needed to go home because I started thinking. Wow, times have changed, even the air was different and the way some of these people were dressed it's no wonder they get called the b word and hoes. I saw enough butt cheeks to last me a lifetime just from people walking past the table. Oh man, what am I gonna do if my son comes home with one of these hot tamales in the very near future?

And I got another question, besides going to church or a special event--does anybody where dress shoes anymore? I saw a young man with pink hightop sneakers and a matching pink shirt (it takes a confident man to wear pink).
I remember when the brother's would get dressed (dress pants, dress shirt and dress shoes)loooking good and smellin good to hangout on a Friday/Saturday night. Now it's jeans and sneakers (wow). Ol skool could teach this generation a thing or two.

Now can we talk for a minute, does anyone remember your not suppose to wear white after Labor Day? Well, I saw Uggs boots with fur and hotpant shorts as one outfit on a hot summer night (really) and I won't even talk about the man with the suit on from Easter 1970 with the matching hat who looked like a misfit in a sea of flesh, he was ol skool on a mission (if you know what I mean) with his slick talkin to them young girls.

Public Announcement: I know Hanes, Eddie Bauer, Calvin Klein, Fruit of a Loom to name a few make Boxer underwear I don't want to look at them all night because your just standing there in one space, right in my face (so annoying)--- oh yeah while I'm thinking about it, YO MAH falls on deaf ears with me...YO MAH can I sit my drink here, YO MAH what's your name, YO MAH you married, YO MAH someone sitting here (shaking my head)...

Yes it was a very interesting night, hope you enjoyed my little write----signing off an official oldhead.

A LOVE SONG - PART5

A LOVE SONG -PART 5

(MARY MAJOR A.K.A. MAJOR KANE)

HIS NIGHT....

ME and my boys , all 6 of us got together
the night I turned 21
we went to THE BEAUTY booty club
we was loud, we was wild, we had drinks, we got drunk
we had fun (in that smoke filled room)

Next, coming to the stage, I introduce to you
MAJOR KANE
as her music played, she came out wearing a
drill sargent hat a knee length army green raincoat
loooonnng ass legs and a fat ass to match
she strutted her stuff like nobody's business
when she dropped that raincoat to reveal
a camouflage bra and a camouflage thong
I got hard as wood and my drunk went out the window
and I knew I had to have her, I knew I had to have her
I talked to someone, who talked to someone,
who talked to someone, arrangements were made
important people were paid, we met after club
closing round back

Her real name was Mary Major, she was about to
graduate nursing school stripping helped her achieve this
we did our thing for a year and a half after that first kiss
it wasnt love, it was complicated, I could'nt even explain it
all I know, we had a real good thing and I didnt want to quit
she achieved her goals, I achieved my goals and everything
was great
it didnt matter to her that Ingrid had my heart and that's
the part I hate

On the intercom: call on line 1, it's Mary - my secretary said
hey u, what's up I answered after I hit the button that was red
sorry to bother you at work she said, but my check didnt come yet
I need a few things do you think you can give a loan
sure no problem, I said, I'll drop it off later--- while I'm there
can I make you scream and moan
she laughed, said yeah, I got some new lingerie-light blue satin and silk
and on your way over here can you stop at the store and get the baby some milk......


SAY WHAT? a baby (yes a son-named Jake- cute as a button)
(THE SECRETARY- NOSEY JOSEY- LISTENED TO THE WHOLE CONVERSATION, LOOSE LIPS SINK SHIPS)
stay tuned...It ain't over

A LOVE SONG - PART4

(INGRID IS ME, THAT'S WHO I BE)

She lived 600 miles, on witchita road, way out in the country
4 brothers and a dog, right next door to paw paw an them
only see her in the summertime, she was a fun lovin kinda girl
she quickly became my friend and a new lovesong began
you see I got pictures of my own, fun lovin summer fun:

(he reminisced)----


Ingrid with a chocolate face, smashed in a bowl of ice cream
Ingrid and a butterfly, with a flower in her hair
ingrid and dog smiling for the camera, what a silly pair
Ingrid walking in the rain, hair and clothes soaked
dripping wet
Ingrid in a sexy pose, on the hood of a car
it was her brother's car, a black and orange corvette
Ingrid in some cut off shorts, a halter top to match
whenever she would dress like this, the air in my
throat would catch (leave me speechless)


One summer day, I was 15, she showed up on the back porch
with a picnic basket, dressed in a
long sleeveless 36 button down dress, naked as a jaybird underneath
(unbeknownst to me at time)
we walked a long country road, in the sun, past the lake
to a opening in a field of lillies
I knew something was up, after we set up are picnic
I fed her grapes and then she sucked on my finger (seductively)
backup, forgot to mention the thermos which we poured
into plastic cups, the liquid was stronger than water
her lips, my finger, the liquid, the feeling intensified
to the 20th power

I opened those 36 buttons, one by one with my teeth
all I remember after that was:
some hair pullin, some kissin, some tossin, some turnin
some swearin, some tearin up that, some scatchin, some
kissin, she was on top, then I was on top, then we stop
to come up for air and drink from the cup, back at it
some kissin, some touchin, some lovin- we did the
horizontal dance for hours, right before the sun went down
(my first love)

A few days later, Ingrid watched from the window
as we loaded up the car to head back home
everybody was outside saying there goodbyes
paw paw and them, 4 brothers and a dog
next thing I know, Ingrid comes from outta nowhere
we slobbed each other down like a xrated video
and did'nt give a damn who was watchin

I knew one day I was gonna marry that girl
(my first love)
it would be some years before we'd see each other
again but we always kept in touch
so now you know who Ingrid is and fun lovin summer fun
and now I cant wait to tell you about the night I turned 21.........

THE DEEP END

Usually when you hear the word deep end it makes you think of a pool of water possibly with a diving board which is where the deep end is located. How many times as a child have you heard someone say "Don't go near the deep end" or "Stay away from the deep end" or "Don't get to close to the deep end". Even if you are a swimmer the deep end can be dangerous. But, even after you've been warned about the deep end, what do you do, jump off the diving board or go down that water slide anyway, it's just something about the thrill of it, you hit that water and you go down, down, down knowing your feet won't touch the bottom. It is only after you come back up and reality sinks in you realize your in the deep end and for some panick sets in. It's like riding a rollercoaster, you slowly creep up that big hill and when you reach the top, no matter how much you think your prepared, when you go flying down it you scream your head off (at least I do) and that's after you've already stood in that long line with the rest of the thrill seekers.

So what does it mean when you hear someone's gone off the deep end (crazy, irrational, carried away)---wow, after reading the definition I guess it's safe to say I've gone off the deep end a time or two. It seems weird that I was just talking about thrills, rollercoasters and swimming pools to find crazy, irrational and carried away are all associated with the deep end. When you say carried away, does it make you think of the men in white coats coming to lock you up in a white padded room with a straight jacket on.

Now that I think about it have'nt we all at some point or other done something (crazy), acted (irrational) in a situation or know of a time you've gotten (carried away) with something ---- after writing about it the deep end does'nt seem so bad. Actually, I wrote this about a week ago, when I was sitting around thinking about something to write about, I guess I could have gone deeper into it, but it was just a mere thought written out loud. Thanks for reading and the next time you hear someone say "Don't go near the deep end" maybe you'll think that would DEEP END on the situation........

A LOVE SONG- PART3

(AFTER 3 DAYS IN A BLURR- SIMMERING THOUGHTS)

WTF he mean he's marrying Ingrid in Vegas, how can this be
this lovesong was suppose to be about him and me (you see)

at the age of 3 - we kissed (closed lipped)
at the age of 5 - we lost are 2 front teeth at the same time
at the age of 10 - we cry'd at a fish furneral when his goldfish died
at the age of 13 - we ate my first cooked lunch (grilled cheese and tomatoe soup)
at the age of 15 - we tried our first smoke, almost died from laughing so hard
when you choked on the smoke that got caught in your throat

during all this there was (Sunday School, Bible study, Vacation bible school
and summer camp) best friends

at the age of 16 - we both learned how to drive, you had your old rusty truck
a bright yellow beatle bug was mine

at the age of 17 - we were busy studying for the college exam, talking careers
and making future plans

at the age of 18 - we went to the prom, I still have the pictures and my pretty
pink dress

A few weeks later we graduated, are parents were so proud
it was the beginning of a beautiful night

BUT THEN AGAIN

it was also the night of that terrible fight

Now that I think about it, he was keeping Ingrid a secret from me
a lovesong gone wrong, a out of tune lover was he to be
tight lipped and closed mouth, the greatest secret he ever kept hid
leaving me with this one little question, WHO THE HELL IS THIS INGRID?

A LOVE SONG- PART2

(AFTER THE WOW)

He ran his fingers thru his hair and said:
Man, how come I never knew about your feelings
I had'nt a clue until today
I'm seriously shocked, stunned and completely blown away
I mean really we never entertained the thought of crossing
that invisible frienship line
we've never kissed as grown-ups and now your telling me
your idea of me and you is nowhere close to mine
your my homie, my buddy and a really special friend
this is a joke right, I'm being punked...ok I give up,you win
her face told it all: no joke,I'm dead serious, I'm not playin
the tears welled up in her eyes, can you feel what I'm sayin

She said:
so the dinners, the pictures, vacations that we took
the dances, the movies, we even shared are very first book (Dr.Seuss, of course)
and I bet you dont even remember are very first fight
we got so mad at each other, ok lets forget about that night
O remember the time your aunt Sara fell and her wig came off
it was wrong, but we laughed anyway
O and what about the time we left Sparkey in the car with a bucket of chicken
he left no crumbs, ate all the chicken, BONES AND ALL--(lol)
O and remember that day we, STOP IT- HE YELLED, I see what your doing
lets get back to the present and talk about this song
yes, some great times and memories because we've known each other for so long
and I love you back in a special kinda way
But you see, I'm getting married to Ingrid, in Vegas
we're leaving today------


BAM!!!!!--bet you did'nt see that coming (oooo it ain't over)
to be continued

IF I GOOGLED YOU

If I googled you, what would I see
on dislay, wide open
what would you share, pictures from years past
or perhaps your current achievements
or maybe nothing a big question mark
mind your business that's for me to know

If I googled you, would it be nothing but distruths
glasshouses and fancy cars hanging with the wanna-bee's
BE CAREFUL: Glass crashes when it's smashed
and fancy cars re-poed

If I googled you, I dont wanna see
my pictures
my words
my thoughts, all stolen by some hacking thief
good grief, my disbelief-- because it happened to me!




This one was inspired by (http://www.bloggingbasics101.com)
she has alot of great and useful info about protecting your
your writings of art......

A LOVE SONG

A LOVE SONG (The Very Beginning)

(Yes, they know each other)

She wrote this man a love song, pouring out her heart
with trembling fingers and a million n one thoughts
she even used the "L word" which wasnt easy to do
for fear of a busted up heart, leaving it black and blue
she wrote about the future and possibly becoming his wife
scratched it out and changed it up and wrote about her life
she wrote about the good times and all the fun they had
she wrote about how the good times definately outweighted the bad
she wrote about being best friends, then she thought this can never be
they did kindergarten time together and now their both 23
she handed him the lovesong and was ready to runaway
he said, wait, where are you going, I need for you to stay
so she stood there frozen in time, one eye closed and a raised eyebrow
he read the words straight-faced, then smiled and just said WOW!


So what do you think was the outcome?
In today's world the word WOW has so many different meanings?
Do you think this is the response she was looking for?
Have you ever had a WOW moment, where your expectations were a different outcome?

Sometimes you can come at a person thinking your on the same page, only to find
out, for whatever reason, there page is written totally different. Then again
maybe they ended up together, forever, riding off into the sunset...........

A PARENT'S THOUGHTS

N MY NEIGHBORHOOD: When the doorbell rings, it's not a black kid or a white kid on the other side of the door, it's just a kid. The kids hang out, go places and have sleepovers. As a parent, it leaves a bad taste in my mouth to know that a kid is dead and the shooter is set free. Yes violence happens everyday all around the world, but still when something like this happens how are you suppose to feel?
As I read some of these post, I'll be the troublemaker and say (sometimes people have a tendency to say the most insensative things at the wrong time) people are hurting, dissapointed, confused, upset, --------(fill in the blank) and downright afraid for there children, please think before you speak. Your tired of hearing about it, you dont want to talk about it, it's because of this kinda attitude we are in the state we are in. They say it all starts at home, I had a conversation with mine and hugged him a little extra longer. I pray that none of us ever have to experience this type of senselessness, because in the blink of an eye your life could be changed forever.
If your a praying person, please pray for me and I'll do the same for you ---they say everything happens for a reason, I sure need some understanding, because this surely makes no sense...

(Rest easy Travon-The verdict was not guilty, but God know's the truth)......)

Music is Therapeutic

This one was inspired by me having to upload my music collection back on ITUNES after that bad thing that happened to me, I started at the beginning of June I just completely finished a few days ago. I take my music seriously :)

As a child I grew up with music in the house, mostly Jazz, R & B and the radio. So I guess that's when it all started and I will say I do like all genres. I still have all my albums and cassettes (which I still play every now and then).

You know when that song comes on the radio or that video comes on tv and you bite your bottom lip and start bobbing your head, making unexplainable faces and you need complete silence, because that's your jam and you just completely zone out.

True story, a few weeks ago I was in this store and at the time I was the only customer, when Benny and the Jets came on, well needless to say I was having a moment, the man behind the cash register told me I was welcome to stay and listen till the song went off, so I did. Next thing I know he's breaking it down to me and his co-worker---you were probably a little girl when this song came out, back in 1970 something, it was on the album ----, I seen him sing it live, man that was something to see. The man's face lit up (guess he was having a moment to) I walked out of the store with a smile on my face and feeling good.

Another time this song came on the radio, Treat her like a lady by the Temptations, I called a friend up and said listen---next thing I know we are cracking up laughing because we shared a memory of a crazy night of hanging out back in the day, I believe somebody fell :)

Or what about when you hear a song and it makes you think of someone who's no longer with us, all you can do is smile and cherish the memory.

In the process of uploading my music, why did I stop and listen to Brian Mcknight's - Anytime, he said Do I ever cross your mind- by the end of the song I was ready to book a flight and pay someone a visit (don't ask - still trying to figure out, what that's all about).

When I got to the T's, I stopped and listened to LOVE TKO - by Teddy P, this song helped me threw a really bad breakup many moons ago, after playing it about 20 times and a whole bottle of wine, he had me convinced Let it go, so I did, good looking out no regrets here. I can actually smile at that memory.

When I got to the Jazz, I just had to let it play real loud, something about that saxaphone get's me everytime.

Honorable mention, the Clark Sisters- You brought the Sunshine - even before they start singing, the beat, you know it's about to go down, next thing you know your singing Never was a Problem, I'm a witness, he'll make a difference in your life, to me they were the first (Mary, Mary)

I've done some of my best thinking listening to music---no matter what the situation, there's a song out there that applies. So today, whether your traveling, working, chillin or whatever you do, listen to some music it will make your day! P.S. Christopher Reeves is still superman to me------

THE MARY JANE FACTOR

She hosed him down like a dirty car on a sunny day
stumbled on that wedding band you were trying to hide
7 months of time she gave you, why
offering champagne dreams on a dollar tree lie
she never was given the option because you perpetrated a fraud
Damn, life is hard enough then to have to deal with this
There are alot of Mary Jane's in the world
some settle for the sake of being alone
nothing never just happens, really
not passing judgement, but how and why are the questions

As a society is this acceptable behavior
kudos to the good guys that don't misbehave
that stay in their lane and don't stray away
Not one to tell you, what's wrong or what's right
but I was always told: What's done in the dark,
eventually comes to the light----

MISS YOU FOREVER

I CRIED AND CRIED WHY, FORGET ABOUT YOU NEVER
I JUST COULDN'T BELIEVE IT, DEVASTATION SET IN
TO KNOW THAT I WOULD NEVER SPEAK TO YOU AGAIN
YOU CANT MAKE A PHONE CALL, YOU CANT SEND A TEXT
I CANT GO ON WITHOUT YOU, HAVE NO IDEA WHAT COMES NEXT
PLEASE SOMEONE HELP ME, SOMETIMES THE PAIN IS SO BAD
MISSING YOU LIKE CRAZY, FEELING ANGRY, SAD AND MAD
BECAUSE YOU HAD TO LEAVE ME, I CANT SEEM TO GET IT TOGETHER
I'LL ALWAYS KEEP YOU NEAR, BECAUSE THE MEMORIES LAST FOREVER
WISH WE HAD MORE TIME TOGETHER BEFORE YOU HAD TO LEAVE
I LOVE YOU AND I MISS YOU, THIS YOU CAN ALWAYS BELIEVE
GUESS I BETTER GO NOW, HAD A FEW THINGS I WANTED TO SAY
JUST WANTED YOU TO KNOW THAT I WAS THINKING OF YOU TODAY
SO R.I.P DEAR LOVED ONE, YOUR AN ANGEL NOW WITH WINGS
I KNOW YOUR WATCHING OVER ME AND DOING ANGEL THINGS
I'LL SEE YOU ON THE OTHER SIDE ONE DAY, IN A DIFFERENT PLACE
AND WHEN I GET THERE I'LL BE LOOKING FOR YOUR SMILING FACE.
BUT UNTIL THAT TIME COMES, FORGET ABOUT YOU NEVER
JUST KNOW THIS ONE THING, I'LL BE MISSIN YOU FOREVER...


THIS ONE IS FROM MY BOOK----
(DEDICATED TO MY DAD...6/1/2OOO)

Undecided to reconcile----

He offered me the world, wanting to give me anything
but my tortured heart from previous wrong doings
wouldn't let me give in so willing-ly
sounding like a broken record with a million I'm sorry's
a changed man you want to convince me
you had a royal feast but you settled for a value meal
I thought what we had was special and real
why should I trust you again, I was fine just doing me
wasnt crying over spilt milk, I was happy and free
I never left you, your the one who jumped ship
maybe I should just give you a permanent dismissal slip
my heart's so divided not sure what to do
wondering how you would feel if I did this to you......

The grass ain't always greener on the other side
just remember Forgive but never forget......








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Guess my favorite color?

Do you have a favorite color?  One day I sat down and wrote about mine, had to laugh about it when I was done, because it's just so me.

A purple heart

A purple haze

A purple Rose

A purple maze

Damn your so sexy to me....

A purple sky

A purple wall

A purple drink

A purple ball

The sexiest color in a crayola box

A purple star

A purple tie

A purple dress

A purple car

Purple my favorite color, I love it the best....

A MAN COMES OUT THE CLOSET

(this one was inspired by Jason Collins)
       - it takes a lot of courage-

A man comes out the closet
because he wanted to be free
from all the sneaking and hiding
judgemental opinions of negativity

It's his life to live
so no opinions please dont give
it was hard enough for him to share
this is his burden he has to bare

so before you go and judge him
make sure your slate is clean
some secrets are best kept
unknown and sight seen

A man comes out the closet
because he wanted to be free
to live his life without judgement
of the microscopic eye of society.

No matter what you think, how you feel
about it, it ain't your battle to fight!

Author-MSCHELL
5/1/13

When the Boss is uncovered-

I recently watched a show on t.v. where the CEO of a company went to work for a week with the employee's of their own company (of course in disguise). For the CEO's it was an eye-opening experience, because they openly admitted, they were used to sitting behind a desk and it's all about numbers and figures.

So let's break it down:

One CEO actually got fired because he could not meet the standard requirements of a trainee. The trainers kept trying to give the CEO a chance but he wasn't fast enough or he just couldn't complete the task or he just made to many mistakes. The CEO was actually stunned because he had never been fired from anything in his life.

In the process of being trained, the CEO's are having conversations with employees and in the process they can't believe some of the stories, at one point one of  the CEO's was moved to tears.

      ---One lady traveled  one-hour and a half, one way everyday for $8 an hour                  and  most days she got off at 12 o'clock midnight.

.    --- Another lady was married with 2 kids she worked 12 hour days, 7 days a                    week missing out on family time and school activities.

     ---One man was raised without a dad, so he excelled at his job so he could be                 able to not only provide for his kids, but be able to afford to do fun things                   with them and create memories that last forever....

Ok, so where am I going with this--stay with me for a minute.  Do you think your boss could perform up to standards required for you to meet? What sacrifices have you had to make in order to keep your job? More importantly, Do you like your job or is it merely a means of survival?
No matter what your answers are, guess with the way the economy is today, anyone with a job should be grateful.

 At the end of the show, the Ceo's ended up revealing their true identity to the employees and provided some insight on improvements that needed to be made concerning the company and some gifts were given such as: (scholarship fund donations, vacations to any destination and cash) to employees based on personal needs. What a happy ending, but of course this was television-----

NOTABLE QUOTES

--When the past comes calling let it go to voice-mail it has nothing new to say....

--Don't put off tomorrow what you can do today, because your tomorrow just            might be your today

--You have choices and you have options, do you know the difference?

--All the things we accept, will be all the things we regret....

--If your happy and you now it, clap your hands....everyday is a blessing!

--A beautiful face doesn't mean anything without a beautiful heart.....

--Success is not about how much money you make, it's about the difference you        make in people's lives....

--BE U...no one else is better at it.....

--Spend time on those that love you unconditionally, don't waste it on those that       only love you when conditions are right for them.....

--Don't compare yourself to others, compare yourself to the person from                      yesterday....

--Sometimes you have to LOVE from a
   Distance and give them the SPACE and
   Time to get their mind right before
    you let them back into your life.....

LIFE- (COMMENTS)

(from my book)

With all the violence going on in the world, people have no regards for human life, this is so sad....we celebrate life when babies are born. Bottomline we only get one and the choices you make will always affect your life. We all make mistakes, it's ok as long as you learn from them....also another day above ground is always worth a thank you, because when your time is up, that's it....make the most of it.

What's your motivation to write....

What is your motivation to write and when did you actually discover your writing talents? As a writer of poetry I am motivated by many things: something I seen on T.V., a phone conversation, I even wrote about having a flat tire. I starting writing as a child (roses are red) and progressed over the years. Wasn't till recently that I embarked on the adventure of writing a book and I must say it's been rather interesting.

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ALOT TO SAY, SUMTHIN TO TALK ABOUT

A FRIENEMY (can u relate)

                                 

A frienemy is someone close in your circle but stabs you in the back with a smile on their face

like having a bad day or getting sprayed with mace

will push the knife deeper just to make sure you feelin it

don’t  wanna see you happy, your joy tryna steal it

Can’t  stand to see you have anything not even a man

would steal him to, if she think she can

A frienemy can be a female or male

definitely not the one you wanna call, if you need money for bail

So people be careful who you call friend

cause a frienemy will screw you over, again and again.....